Age 5 – The Birth of Worldly Consciousness & Fear of Death / Orna Ben Dor
“I am in the center of the kindergarten. The children are flowing toward me, I have something to show them. I don’t remember what it was. At any rate, they seek my presence. I am the leader. From the corner of my eye I see Esterika. A beautiful girl, fair, like a good angel.Her brown hair, silky, wavy, her mouth sensuous – although her whole being seems sublime.Esterika looks at me with love and understanding. She does not run toward me, as she has nothing to find there. For me she is the undisputed queen. None of the kids notice her at all. They all approach me. I am ashamed. I know she is the real queen, the queen of spirit, I am the queen of substance. I am the present, she is the vision, the future, the aspiration. Esterika does not scorn, is not jealous, or angry. She looks at me with a loving and accepting look as if saying – ‘I know you from the inside. You still need the audience applause. I accept you as you are’. And I know at that very moment – ‘Esterika is my fate’.
What is age 5? And what happened to the five year old girl that tells us the story about Esterika?
Age 5 is one of the three most significant ages in the first half of life (up until the age of ~33). The two others are age 9 and age 12. In these three ages a person’s being is only partially expressed, each time under different circumstances and reasons. Age 5 is referred to as the birth of physical consciousness. Age 9 is regarded asthe birth of worldly consciousness.Age 12 is called the birth of identity and gender identity.
By understanding the events that take place in these ages, and the response to them, one may learn about the mature adult, his behavior modes, his repressed sides and the manner in which he conducts himself in the world. Age 5 belongs to the first seven years in a child’s life, years in which the life forces, also known as the etheric forces, gradually build the physical body and perfect him in a manner that will not repeat itself again in life, in terms of pace and intensity.
As of age 5, a child becomes aware of his body, of the fact that ‘I am my body’; until that age the child does not have a special awareness to his personal body. He simply lives inside his body naturally and in harmony. In the first 7 years, different bodily systems develop in the child:
By age 2 the nervous system and the brain develop dramatically. From age 2 to 5 the rhythmic system develops – heart and lungs. From age 5 onwards the building force is directed to the lower parts – the digestive and sexual systems, and the limbs. By age 7 the life body has concluded its role in developing the physical body, and will be diverted to other roles. One may say that the limbs, sexual and digestive systems, developed in the child by the age of 5, are the most “crude, physical” systems. While they are being developed, the child identifies with his physical being, and by thus recognizes himself as a being that is bound to earth and its matter-related rules. A being that identifies itself with its body, and with death, since the part in the human being that perishes is the physical body. Hence, unknowingly, and sometimes consciously, the child understands that he is a finite being and for the first time starts to experience himself as a citizen of the earth. The event he experiences at age 5 leaves a behavioral and cognitive pattern that is tied to his life as an earthly being, and not to his whole spiritual being.
Age 5 is called the birth of the physical consciousness,and is considered one of the founding ages in human biography. A founding age is an age that radiates on additional ages in the biography and explains them. At the age of 5 a certain event takes place in each one of our lives. It needn’t be dramatic or traumatic, but rather one that results in discomfort, insult, fear and the like. For example: the kids in the kindergarten did not let me join in. The manner in which I responded to that event will turn into a response pattern to similar events in my adult life that would generate the original emotion.
Different people respond in different ways to similar events. For example, in response to the event described above, the following types of reactions might occur: weeping, a cry for the teacher’s help, beating, withdrawal, walking to another spot, etc. By choosing a specific response, the child unconsciously chooses a behavior that is related to his karma, which prevents other possibilities to occur. They are denied and hidden and actually turn inaccessible to consciousness until a later phase in life. In that regard, only a person’s partial being is expressed. In the description presented at the beginning of this essay, age 5 brings with it an experience of leadership in the material world and an unfulfilled yearning for the spiritual world. The leadership in the material world will follow the five year old girl throughout her life, and in order to take part in the spiritual world she will have to relinquish the benefit that is associated with such leadership, and use that leading ability for the world’s benefit.
The understanding of the meaning of age 5 enables the counselee during the biographical work to observe his behavior pattern in life and re-examine it. A correct understanding of the event from that age may open up a possibility for new freedom.
Our journey as human beings is one from matter to spirit. During that journey we are requested, among other things, to relinquish cognitive and behavioral patterns that were suitable for the first part of our life, that were connected to the safe incarnation in the material life – but do not always fit adult life and the spiritual development that starts to unfold from mid-life onwards.